"She Don't Want It"

[Santana Ortiz]

The cool air caressed my soft cheeks as i scooted the log i was sitting on closer to the blazing fire to keep warm, my sienna eyes looking over to Phoenix sitting across from me as the fire sat between us. She seemed deep in thought, in a trance even as her gleaming emerald eyes stared transfixed on the flickering flames before us, the hooting of the owls filling the night sky. I pulled on my black North Face jacket as i looked around me, not the least bit afraid that we were in the middle of a forest engulfed by the darkness of the night at midnight.. but Phoenix insisted we come here. Her sudden words cause me to turn around to face her. {The Firebird}Phoenix Quagliaterre{SDS Famiglia} You're wondering why we're here.... I can see it in your eyes. This is the place i used to escape to after Cole would go too far.... forcing me to runaway temporarily just to escape any further harm. I'd camp out here... alone, talking to God, asking him when he'd save me from this personal hell i had to endure EVERY-SINGLE-DAY... but i got nothing but more silence... and even more beatings.. She pauses to take a deep breath, exhaling lightly as her eyes go back to staring at the growing flame as if she were looking right through it. {The Firebird}Phoenix Quagliaterre{SDS Famiglia} This was my own lil fortress of solitude as a teen, my home away from home.... A few logs, a nice fire and just being outside away from all the bullshit i had to deal with on a day to day basis... was what helped me anchor onto the lil sanity i had left... but now? It's my preferred spot to come to when i need to think everytime i'm back here in New York. I usually come alone... but i wanted to bring you. To show you where i had to rebuild myself at... Because i wasn't lying when i said Cole broke me. He broke me in ways... i never thought were imaginable. And i built myself back up, put together all the pieces. I may not have rebuilt myself the same way... but i'm still whole. She finally peels her deep gaze away from the orange flames to peer into my eyes, seeming to search for something as i remain deathly still to let her know i was hanging onto her every word. {The Firebird}Phoenix Quagliaterre{SDS Famiglia} But enough about the past... let's talk about the present, shall we? Her eyes dimmed down from the fierceness shown in her pupils to showcase her entire demeanor changing to incorporate the change of subject. I sat up as if i were an engaged student who was listening intently to her favorite teacher as i readied myself for what i knew was to come. {The Firebird}Phoenix Quagliaterre{SDS Famiglia} Milani... do you agree with what i am doing with her? Was she.... testing me? I studied her as her face remained expressionless. {Queen Savager}Santana "Satan" Ortiz{SDS Famiglia} Hell YEA i agree wit it! I yelled out, becoming fired up almost immediately at the mentioning of my newest rival's name. I don't know what it was... maybe i was just pissed off that someone who was actually blood related to THEE Firebird could be so greedy.... so selfish.... so stupid and practically turn their back on her. What really irked me was that Milani had always been the Chosen One in Phoenix's eyes.. But she dared took that for granted and stepped across the line to back up a group of spineless "coños con alas" and thought that Phoenix was just going to take that lying down? Hell that ANY of us would just accept that form of treachery? She must be smoking something laced with crack if she thought she was getting away scot free... {The Firebird}Phoenix Quagliaterre{SDS Famiglia} I know she is upset that i am making her earn back the right to carry my legacy and she believes that you have gotten it too easily.... {Queen Savager}Santana "Satan" Ortiz{SDS Famiglia} EASILY?! I find myself shouting out with pure rage, my body temperature heating up as my blood boiled with anger. Unbeknownst to me.... Phoenix was getting me riled up on purpose, manipulating my emotions to make me pissed off than i already was. {Queen Savager}Santana "Satan" Ortiz{SDS Famiglia} While SHE'S been away and kickin' dirt at us, I have been here upholding the family name and fighting for us! I never changed nor let ANYTHING change me instead of her. She gets married.... and now she think she the fairest of them all? PLEASE. She must have drunk the water and her mind all clouded because she seems to forget where she came from.... I didn't realize i was cracking my knuckles until i heard the faint popping, Phoenix's slanted eyes seeming to widen a bit in amusement as i continued with my tirade. {Queen Savager}Santana "Satan" Ortiz{SDS Famiglia} Yooooo..... she bout to be flat on her back like i'm her weak ass husband or some shit. Hail Milli? Only thing she hailin is the sole of my boot that's stompin' on her face. She talked all that rah rah shit on twitter, let's see what she say face to face.... she forget that she never could beat me all the years we trained together. I was always one upping her. She says she needs a hand to get herself together? Well i got her.... wit two to the FACE. I just don't understand what she SEES in that family? Is dude pipe game that strong?? I mean, couldnt have been like GREAT cause her and Jhasmine were actin as if they were all lost and sad just two weeks ago when you talked to them on the phone... or does she feel pity for them because they are weak and she's became weak just like them? For real, Phe, i think you're spot on wit sayin she done went soft, cause the bitch might just be softer than yo ass, man. She snorts as she shakes her head, her eyes lighting up as i could tell that she wished for me to continue with my verbal lashing of her sorry excuse of a niece. {Queen Savager}Santana "Satan" Ortiz{SDS Famiglia} She got this whole, 'woe is me' act goin on but she 'posed to be King Milli, right? The Chosen One? The Assassin.... maaaaaan only ASSASSIN shit goin on in a few days is when i assassinate that ass in the middle of the ring. I wasn't playin' when i said she was a disgraced salty ass bitch that brought our family shame. Then she got Tamina manly ass and big booty Judy, Naomi backin' her like she still wpn't catch this ass whoopin' and these twin hands. Yea i got Selinas and Chola backin' me but i pray to God, Moses, Jehovah's Witness and even the burnin' fuckin' bush that if ANY of those two get involved in the match....? All hell is breakin loose. I wish a bitch would... i wish upon ALL these goddamn stars twinklin' away above us that they would get involved... You know what i think is the problem, Phe? {The Firebird}Phoenix Quagliaterre{SDS Famiglia} What is it, baby? {Queen Savager}Santana "Satan" Ortiz{SDS Famiglia} I think.... Milani is due for a baptism. {The Firebird}Phoenix Quagliaterre{SDS Famiglia} A.... baptism...? {Queen Savager}Santana "Satan" Ortiz{SDS Famiglia} Yea yea..... i think she need me to lay these hands on her like i'm Jesus Christ himself and heal her from this disease.... this.. disease that has her stricken with confusion and stupidity... and then i am gonna dip her into her own blood. {The Firebird}Phoenix Quagliaterre{SDS Famiglia} Hmmm... go on.... {Queen Savager}Santana "Satan" Ortiz{SDS Famiglia} And i think if her "family" wants it, they can come get some of these prollems too. Cause i have no qualms passin out extra ass kickings like samples, you feel me? My sole mission is to make her pay for what she did to you.... to US and to show her that she chose wrong... I mean, it was so easy for them to get snatched up. You publicly announced you were comin' to get em... you call that protection that they so call have ova there? They deserve all the shit that is gonna happen to the girls and i DARE them to step up.... shit would turn into the wild wild west REAL quick up in hea'. I pause to catch my breath, surprised by my intense anger as Phoenix smiles at me with innocence while her eyes twinkle with mischief. {The Firebird}Phoenix Quagliaterre{SDS Famiglia} I am greatly disappointed in Milani. I tried to mold her into someone i could be proud of. Someone i thought would be the best representation of me but instead, she verbally spits in my face and shuns me with her actions. What is the number one rule of the Famiglia, Santana? {Queen Savager}Santana "Satan" Ortiz{SDS Famiglia} NEVER turn your back on the Famiglia. {The Firebird}Phoenix Quagliaterre{SDS Famiglia} And the number one rule of the Phemandments?? {Queen Savager}Santana "Satan" Ortiz{SDS Famiglia} DONT cross the Firebird... {The Firebird}Phoenix Quagliaterre{SDS Famiglia} EXACTLY and she broke BOTH. She has been spoon fed all her life and she managed to bite the hand that feeds her.. {Queen Savager}Santana "Satan" Ortiz{SDS Famiglia} Milani not only bit the hand that fed her.... but she gnawed on the wrist into the bone too..... Phoenix nods her head in agreeance as she stands up, cuing that we were done here as i stand to my feet and grab for the bucket of water that was to the side of me. As i pick it up and start to put out the flames, Phoenix motions with her hand for me to stop as i obey her. {The Firebird}Phoenix Quagliaterre{SDS Famiglia} I want you to envision that bucket of water in your hand as yourself and look to that fire as that being Milani. You got me? I nod my head before dousing the flame with the cool water to kill the flames, the hissing from it filling the cool night air as Phoenix stares at it, watching the flames disappear until she was staring at the ashes. She walks over to me as i tuck the bucket under my arm while she wraps hers around my shoulder. {The Firebird}Phoenix Quagliaterre{SDS Famiglia} I warned her that it would come to this last month when she kept going up against me. I guess this is what she wanted... {Queen Savager}Santana "Satan" Ortiz{SDS Famiglia} Oh trust me, this AINT what she want. We both know i was always the stronger out of us both. She aint bout that life and she better hope when we step in that ring that she dont end up LOSIN the lil bit of spirit she has left in that pathetic waste of a body of hers. I WILL make her respect you again... and i don't care if i have to break her bones and bend her BACK to make that shit happen. {The Firebird}Phoenix Quagliaterre{SDS Famiglia} You promise? {Queen Savager}Santana "Satan" Ortiz{SDS Famiglia} Prometo. I say with a mixture of seriousness and conviction as i allowed Phoenix to lead me through the dark forest away from the abandoned campsite. I vowed to myself that i wasn't leaving that ring until my fists were coated with her blood... because simply pinning her for the three wasn't enough... oh no. Her getting the easy way out was just something i couldn't do nor allow to happen. I needed her to feel where i was coming from as far as why i was going so hard at her for her betrayal. I wanted her to understand the seriousness of her actions and physically feel the seriousness of MINE. I wanted her to lay there broken, beaten.... BATTERED and wish that she never had made the stupidest decision in her weak and pathetic life to ever cross us.

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