Heath Slater with Tits and Tattoos

[❤Rose❤]

After her next loss at the PPV Amanda is shown as she walks around backstage. It seems that she is in no good condition and like usually after her matches she is really bad bruised, but that's not all, she also seems to be disorientated and she has some problems with breathing. As she enters her locker room, she presses her hand on her chest, right above the heart, and then she sinks down on a chair.

~Amanda~
This fucking job will kill me one day and I'm so fucking sick of playing the living punching ball and this since more than a year. Slowly I really begin to hate al this and I feel like Heath Slater with tits and tattoos. Every single rookie in this company beats me up with ease and I have been so fucking stupid to think that that I could go for a title again one day.

She still doesn't feel good and so she goes to her bath room and washes her face. Now, after all the makeup is washed off, she looks into the mirror and starts laughing. What she sees looks exactly like on the picture they showed at the show. In some way it's funny to see what is left from the former so pretty girl, but it's also a shock to see the reality. She still laughs, but there also come some tears into her eyes.

~Amanda~
Oh shit, I'm really a complete wreck. It's no wonder that my time is over and that I only get booked as a filler, but at least this way the fans have someone to laugh about. Fuck, I slowly hate all this here, but at least it brings me some money. But when they think that I will come to their last show this year, then they are wrong. I had enough performances where they could laugh about me and I don't need another one. I really have better things to do.

Now she goes back to her chair and sits down again. She pulls a small plastic bag out of her pocket and pours some of the white powder on a glass plate. Then she takes a razor blade and for a moment she thinks of ending her crappy life by cutting her wrists, but than she forms to thin lines with it. Now she takes a dollar note and roles it, then she bends forward and sniffs the white powder. Her head sinks forward and she becomes dizzy, but it feels good and she forgets all the crap around her. For the next hours she will feel better, even though she still knows that she can't escape from reality forever and that the horror will come back, then the scene fades to black.