Guess I have some explaining to do?

[Chris Matthews]

So here it goes...I know I haven't been on lately and I know that as Television champion I need to show why I am champion. I guess I've been so focus on another fed that it feels likes I'm losing my grasp on this fed. I mean I have nothing against any of the members here and I respect you all. It just seems like I can't be in too many fed and that the feds I'm part of doesn't peek my interest anymore. I just don't know what do to do anymore. I have this feud going on with Carnage and Taker and I can't be there to even help when they need me. Maybe this is a reality check for me. I guess for the last couple mouths...I've been on the bad side of some feds and it sucks for me. So here it goes...If I do decide to leave this fed, I don't want to leave on a bad note.

Kyle you know me and you know I wouldn't do anything to hurt this fed or the members. I'm just not getting the support from people that I used to get. I know this is all fun and games, but it become who I am. I love this game and I want to continue it...I just don't know what I want really anymore.

But I been feeling like shit lately cause people all over is bad mouthing me and bad mouthing the way I run my character...they say Chris is a cancer and needs to be removed. Removed? Sorry to say but that isn't happening, I try to make up with people, but they are taking what I did in character to heart and they don't understand how that is affecting me. I guess this little rant isn't about what I think or what I want with Chris...but just you know, ease up on my Chris character and me...I'm not really saying you guys do it, but its other people. So I want to say thanks for taking the time to read this and understand what I'm trying to say and do. Just want ever you guys say or do...just don't take it to heart -- cause honestly, I'm trying my best to get Chris to be a good name and not for what he say or do.

I guess that is all I have to say. So yea...like I said thanks for taking the time to read this.

["The Iceman" Konrad Raab]

I get that twitter shit as well with my Lord Raab and Samuel McPherson characters lately and that is fucking ridiculous. I mean I get it with you cos you have an twitter account with Chris Matthews and that is fine because obviously people can speak stuff about Chris on twitter due to having an account which is fair in playing fields on that aspect of things, but I don't have one with either Lord Raab and Samuel McPherson because of who they are as characters since it's unrealistic for monster and animal type characters to have twitter accounts and that more than anything makes people's characters look like a bunch of cowards to not address the stuff they say about them directly rather than them being able to see what's going on twitter to fight back. I don't have one with Stefan Raab either because of his age and is too old for twitter.

Yeah there are some dip shits on twitter who jump in to defend the popular people, some who aren't even apart of the fed the match is taking place on or even being in the same fed as me just so they'll fit in with the cool people which is a fucking joke in itself. I feel fedding is becoming too twitter dependant these days and twitter more than anything is killing this game without any CD threads created in the feds itself, I just feel twitter is a lazy way of getting characters noticed and not putting in any hard work into RP's these days. I feel segments, the match RP's and using the CD threads should be what gets the character's popularity, not twitter. It's only one fed out of the other places I'm in that do this shit everyday consistently with their characters.

Yeah I know what you mean on putting focus on another fed cos I feel that way myself and I for one respect you're decision to leave here and I wish you all the best in that fed I won't name to achieve more success man. You know I respect you as an RPer and I will always to this day.

[Xion Zeros]

You know I don't have anything against you in the least, but at the same time, I don't keep up with what's going on with every character's Twitter account. I have enough trouble keeping up with all of the accounts that I manage on there.

Athena and I have already discussed it over the past few weeks actually, but it's best that I don't try to "police" or "regulate" anyone's IC Twitter accounts on here. I don't expect everyone's character to have an IC Twitter account so that's why I'm not citing that as credible source for creating/endorsing feuds. If members want to do that to get more eyes on the fed and what they are doing, cool, but by no means it's a governing body to determine if you win or lose your matches. The ONLY time I did so was during the tag team tournament finals to crown the first tag champions and the MisFits were so involved in getting the other teams active and engaged with interacting with them on Twitter to promote the feud back and forth, especially before the PPV.

In terms of character development, we have boards that aren't even being used for that but most want to stick with Twitter. I think it's getting to the point where it's problem not in just this fed but many efeds whereas people are jumping to Twitter for their character development and completely ignoring that aspect for their characters in individual feds' feuds and storylines. Those people have tons of free time for promoting themselves on their IC Twitter accounts but can't take the time to obey the deadlines for submitting promos and RPs for the feds they are in. By this ongoing standard, IC Twitter becomes a popularity pissing contest to garner the most followers and/or "heat" by blocking people from their own ghetto wannabe rapper or reality TV-oriented style manufactured beef by who can attract the most attention by spilling the "tea" or whatever slang term it is for spreading gossip or what people think they know is the OOC truth about situations. Do I like this ongoing trend? Not at all, but there's not much I can do against it on my soapbox. I humbly suggest don't participate in it in the least if you can to egg those individuals on or just simply block/mute them altogether.

We had an issue before where people claimed to be have been cyber-bullied via social media that was misunderstood as OOC comments that were supposed to be IC so I don't want anyone here feeling like anyone is attacking them personally. Negativity is going to come from all angles no matter what. Look at the situation we had here not too long ago with Natasha Rose's handler. The best thing to do is block/mute the negativity and move on. You know and your friends know what kind of person that you are and how good your heart is - you don't have to explain yourself to anyone as far as I'm concerned. I just wish people in this game - especially the younger generation of RPers would stop trying to blend the lines of OOC and IC together whereas they are attacking handlers instead of characters. This game is supposed to be about having FUN and I've seen too many of my friends ridiculed to the point that they hate this game altogether or they just allow it to consume them with so much negativity that they just give up and quit altogether - never to look back again.

As for the Chris Matthews' character, he's done some heelish things here so I'm personally seeing him like Seth Rollins from my perspective. I don't know how you're portraying him in other feds so I can't comment on that.

If you decide to leave, I humbly respect your decision. All that I ask is at least don't leave the people that you're working with/feuding with hanging with nothing to go on. I have been seeing a lot of that going on lately with people flaking out left and right and I know how that sucks for people. You want to get an awesome feud/storyline going then people drop out or disappear and everyone else is left to salvage what's left.

[DELT∆]

I should chime in and put my 2 cents in.

I know it seems like I take things too ~personally~ and out of context in character but I'm just portraying how my character would react. For instance, Delta's character wouldn't be all forgiving to Matthews because she was in a past domestic relationship herself and her extreme reaction is justified to her. And Matthews character IMO does give the signs of a domestic abuser due to his reaction to Delta rejecting him. But hey, you may see that differently so you're worried that Delta has ruined your character here. But the honest truth is, you're the one who made the whole thing bigger than it was with how Matthew's aggressively reacted and I had to make Delta fire back.

I brought my character Daniel in to meditate the situation so there's nothing personal IRL. The situation wouldn't be so bad if Matthew's responded to Daniel and stopped him throwing around those accusations. I'm just a tiny bit annoyed because I attempted to fix the situation and you ignored it, but I'm not going to hold it against you.

*shrug*

["The Iceman" Konrad Raab]

I wasn't talking about this fed though if the comments were aimed at me which actually GZWA doesn't count right now because I only had two matches here and Stefan hasn't really got started yet. It's another one I won't name that I have a problem with. You guys amongst the other feds I'm on are fantastic. It's just one fed in particular that does this crap without me being able to do anything because of not having accounts with my two heel characters I have in this game.

[DELT∆]

The reason I'm still here in GZWA because I always find it to be a close knit family, there were a few bad eggs here and there and I admit I've been one of the bad eggs in the past Lol

But I know I can come off dickish but that's how I play my characters. I guess I can go overboard with the layering of my characters which can seem I'm going way out of line. But, personally if you going to throw fire expect to be burned characterwise. I just don't want you to think I'm blurring the lines. Like Z said, Matthews did quite a lot of heelish things and I think he should deal with what he has done. Every character has their flaws and to make a good character is to work with those flaws. But that's just me, sooo....

There are times where I do get frustrated, but it's mostly my own character development, hence why I left TWE in the first place. I sensed I couldn't rectify my character and decided to leave and I was just feeling burned out. It happens and I totally understand.