Post by Bobbi Jackson on May 28, 2017 12:22:49 GMT -5
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I guess I just got lost
Being someone else
I tried to kill the pain
Nothing ever helped
I left myself behind
Somewhere along the way
Hoping to come back around
To find myself someday
Lately I'm so tired of waiting for you
To say that it's okay, but tell me
Please, would you one time
Just let me be myself
So i can shine with my own light
Let me be myself
Would you let me be myself
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{SATURDAY, MAY 27th - 2:13PM}
{SATURDAY, MAY 27th - 2:13PM}
The scene opens up at a local strip mall in Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania. Bobbi gets out of her pink 2016 Audi R8 Spyder as she locks her vehicle and starts to approach the stores. She doesn't come here often, but Carmen and Giselle insisted she meet them here today. Luckily for her, Giselle is standing out in front of the strip waiting for her...
Bobbi sees Giselle and the two exchange a wave as they walk towards each other meeting half way as they share a warm friendly hug.
Bobbi: Mmmm so good to see you!
Bobbi says with a smile. Giselle squeezes her close good and tightly as she smiles right back.
Giselle: Back at ya, hun. It's always nice getting together. Carmen is already at the donut shop. Apparently she couldn't wait any longer.
Bobbi laughs.
Bobbi: All good, I could use the cheat day anyways...
Giselle nods and grabs Bobbi by the hand guiding her through the strip mall, they eventually reach their destination where Bobbi immediately spots Carmen with her donut and some kind of iced coffee drink. It hits Bobbi instantly that Carmen has changed her hair up since the last time they saw each other. She wants to mention it, but she can't help notice the look on Carmen's face isn't as happy as she was hoping for...
Bobbi: Is everything okay with Carmen?
Bobbi whispers to Giselle as they approach as she offers the Latina a friendly wave.
Giselle: You worry too much, everything is cool!
Bobbi nods as her and Giselle sit down at the circled table. Carmen glances at Giselle and she glances back at her. Bobbi knows something isn't right...but she doesn't want to force that issue as she decides to comment on Carmen's hair anyways.
Bobbi: You just couldn't tolerate Giselle being the only one with a new hairdo could you?
Bobbi offers Carmen a playful wink, hoping to get her to crack a smile. It does manage to do the trick as Carmen gives her a lopsided smirk, the other side of her mouth busy chewing.
Carmen: Well, it's good to switch things up a bit sometimes. Just not TOO much.
Carmen lets the statement linger a moment as she takes a sip.
Carmen: Can't go losing touch of what makes me so amazing, after all.
Giselle rolls her eyes a bit.
Bobbi: Of course not, I think it looks good. A little darker, a little curlier. But still you at the end of the day...and that's all that matters.
The blonde responds with a nod, not really catching Carmen's first hint of probably many as it seems like neither really want to come out and say why they invited Bobbi out here today. Carmen just nods right back as she pushes a lock of her hair back over her shoulder.
Carmen: Don't worry about the donuts, I got enough for all of us...
She turns the box sitting on the table so the opened up top doesn't obscure the others' vision of the sweet treats within as Bobbi examines what's in the box. Giselle however is quick to speak up...
Giselle: Well we still need drinks, so what'll you have, hun?
Bobbi: Oh ummm...an iced mocha blend of some kind would be delightful.
Bobbi says as she picks up a glazed sour cream donut out of the box and takes a big bite, a smile forming on her face as she chews it and speaks with her mouth full.
Bobbi: Mmmm...so good....
While Giselle nods and heads to the counter to get their drinks Carmen can't help a smile spreading to her lips at seeing her dear friend enjoy her food.
Carmen: Glad you like it. These things are SO tasty, but also kinda terrible for ya. That's just how it is sometimes, I guess.
Bobbi offers a shrug as another one of Carmen's hints goes right over her head.
Bobbi: Eh, I said today would be my cheat day. A few donuts with my besties isn't gonna hurt me.
Carmen shrugs her shoulders in turn.
Carmen: So long as you're the one in charge and not your appetite leading you.
Bobbi laughs.
Bobbi: Well of course! Don't be silly hun!
Bobbi says finishing off that donut as she smiles at Carmen and gently nudges at her under the table with her foot.
Bobbi: You okay?
Bobbi says feeling like she HAS to ask as she just can't shake the feeling that something is wrong even though Giselle says there wasn't. Carmen lets out a sigh, hanging her head briefly before she looks back at Bobbi again.
Carmen: I'm worried. We are worried...
Bobbi looks at Carmen confused, not really understanding what she's trying to say.
Bobbi: Worried? About what? Me? Why!?
Bobbi fires about four questions at the Latina beauty in under ten seconds, clearly in her head...she's more worried about what Carmen is trying to imply than whatever it could be that Carmen is talking about.
Carmen: You hanging out with the psycho stalker twins.
Giselle: CARMEN!
Giselle huffs returning to the table as she puts Bobbi's drink down in front of her, then takes a seat herself.
Giselle: Is that your idea of not being judgmental, like we talked about?
Bobbi feels her heart sink into her stomach as her cautious smile immediately fades into frowning territory as she responds softly.
Bobbi: Oh...so that's why you all wanted to see me today...My new friends...
Bobbi just looks down at the table, her appetite ruined...and her desire to sip on her drink is non existent. Giselle places a hand on Bobbi's shoulder, rubbing it gently.
Giselle: That's what we're concerned about, whether they really are. There's nothing wrong with meeting new people and befriending them... so long as your friendship is actually what they want.
Carmen: That's right. We've been your friends like forever, there's no way we can just ignore it when something looks like a truckload of trouble coming right at our Bobbi.
Bobbi looks up slightly but isn't really making eye contact with either of them.
Bobbi: You all said the same thing when me and Susan became friends again after all we went through, and guess what...we're still friends!
Bobbi takes a deep breath, she doesn't want to cause a scene or get overly emotional as she lowers her tone and continues...
Bobbi: So why can't you trust me now? Why can't you just let me be me? You know I don't really like fighting with anyone, and if I can be someone's friends....I'd much rather be that than their enemy...
Bobbi's shoulders slouch as she wishes they were seated at a table with backrests right now cause she would just love to sink back in her seat right now but she cannot.
Giselle: It ain't about whether we trust you or not, it's about us not trusting THEM. Fair enough, you managed to patch things up with Susan and not only was that really big of you to forgive her for everything, but you also took the risk of lowering your guard and it paid off...
Carmen: ...but we just ain't sure lightning is gonna strike twice. Not every tiger is able to shed their stripes. Susan's chilled out a lot in general since she started focusing on training new talent instead of competing herself, but we just don't know about these Frosts...
The Angels glance at one another, worry etched on both of the girls' faces. Bobbi just sits there quiet. She can't believe THIS is why Carmen and Giselle wanted to see her today. The triple threat trios match has already been weighing on Bobbi's mind heavily all week...and now this on top of it, it's all just too much. Bobbi closes her eyes as a few silent tears stream down her cheeks as she quickly wipes them away. But not quick enough for Carmen's quick eye to not catch the motion as she almost jumps out of her chair, knocking her near-empty cup over, some of the drink spilling onto the table before Giselle can hurriedly get it upright while Carmen caressingly slides a hand over Bobbi's cheek, trying to make eye-contact.
Carmen: What if we ARE right? What then? We NEVER want to see you get hurt and we always want to be there for you when you need us, but we can't be watching over you 24/7 to be sure your good nature won't be taken advantage of.
Bobbi: Well you AREN'T!
Bobbi says bluntly as her brown eyes lock with Carmen's as she opens them again.
Bobbi: If you all are done telling me how to live my life, I'll be on my way...
The blonde says very much thinking about getting up and storming off. The fact that her best friends since childhood would question her friendship with others right now is hurting her at her very core. It's tearing her apart inside but she's doing absolutely everything she can to maintain her composure in such a public place. Carmen pretty much physically recoils from the threat, holding her hands up as her butt plops back in her seat.
Carmen: Hey, I ain't my mom, I'm not gonna try to tell you to do or not do anything, I'm just worried cause you're so dear to us.
Bobbi: So you're done...?
Bobbi says as her lip quivers as she speaks, its clear just by looking at her that she's not emotionally stable right now. How she's managing to keep it together in front of them right now is beyond her. Carmen just nods her head as she goes to take a sip from her drink, but then realizes there's barely any left, huffing a bit at it as she gulps the last of it down while Giselle sighs and goes back to rubbing Bobbi's shoulder. But this time Bobbi gently shrugs to move Giselle's hand away from her as she notices Carmen being more upset about her drink than this conversation which at this point is all she needed to see.
Bobbi: Well at least this won't go to waste...
Bobbi says as she stands up and pushes her drink across the table for Carmen to enjoy instead.
Bobbi: I'm out. Thanks for the donut, next time you all want to hang out. Try and make sure it's not an intervention to condemn me for being myself!
And with that the blonde turns around and storms off away from the table. Carmen goes to get up to follow her but Giselle grabs her wrist and pulls the Latina back, just mouthing the words "No, let her go." as Carmen sits back down and sighs. As Bobbi gets to the parking lot the tears are freely flowing now as she finally makes it back to her vehicle. She gets inside and grabs a tissue out of her dashboard and just cries into it as the scene fades out.
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I'll never find my heart
Behind someone else
I'll never see the light of day
Living in this cell
It's time to make my way
Into the world i knew
Take back all of these times
That i gave in to you
Lately i'm so tired of waiting for you
To say that it's ok, but tell me
Please, would you one time
Let me be myself
So i can shine with my own light
And let me be myself
For a while, if you don't mind
Let me be myself
So i can shine with my own light
Let me be myself
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{ABOUT AN HOUR LATER}
Bobbi returns home to the Mansion still pretty upset about how her afternoon out with Carmen and Giselle went. The blonde slams the door behind her as she chucks her keys on the nearby side table which startles her husband Michael who's watching TV in the den.
Showtime: Hey, everything okay?
Showtime says rather loudly from the couch to make sure Bobbi can hear him, but she doesn't answer, all he hears is a loud thud in the hallway. He quickly puts the remote down on the couch before getting up and heading into the hallway where he finds Bobbi on the floor sitting against the wall with her head in her hands.
Showtime: Bobbi what happened?
Michael asks concerned as he kneels down beside his wife and gently rubs her shoulder. She trembles a bit and eventually looks up at him, tears running down her cheeks as she just lunges out at him wrapping her arms around him tightly as Michael just pats her back and sighs.
Showtime: There there...come on babe...relax...
The blondes head rests on her husbands strong shoulder as her tears stain his shirt. He holds Bobbi in his arms as he sits down at he foot of the staircase and just pulls her into his protective arms.
Showtime: Take a couple of deep breaths. Try to relax and tell me what happened...
Bobbi nods slightly in response to his words as she takes a couple long deep breaths before slowly lifting her head back up to look into his eyes as she sniffs a bit and speaks softly and slowly...
Bobbi: I went to go see...Carmen and Giselle...
Showtime nods, knowing this part as she told him that before she left...but the last thing he was going to do right now is remind her of that. He just wants to be there for her and be supportive as best he can as he remains silent and lets the blonde speak in her own pace.
Bobbi: And I thought they wanted to see me....to hang out...you know?
Showtime: Yea...
Showtime says as he kinda already has an uneasy feeling about where this is going.
Bobbi: But instead...Carmen ambushed me...and they started getting on me about being friends with Dominique and Eliza...it's like...they don't trust me to make my own decisions...it hurt SO much!
Showtime sighs as he reaches into his pocket and pulls out a tissue and hands it to her as she blows her nose.
Bobbi: Thank you...
Showtime: Of course honey, I'm so sorry that this happened. But things have gone really well for you and your new friends. I'm sure Carmen and Giselle didn't mean to come across like they did. They just worry about you...we all do. But you know me, I always let you make your own choices and decisions. All I want for you is to be happy.
Showtime brushes some of the blondes hair out of her face as she sniffs and gives him a weak smile as she tries to wipe her face with the back of her hand.
Bobbi: I really appreciate that hun...
Showtime gently touches Bobbi's chin with his fingers as he tilts her head directly in line with his as he stares deeply into her clearly hurting brown eyes.
Showtime: Just answer me this honestly...okay?
Bobbi nods slightly before he continues.
Showtime: Lets completely forget about what happened this afternoon...for this question to make sense...this situation never happened...Alright?
Bobbi: Okay...
Showtime smiles at her.
Showtime: It's been a rough couple of months for you getting back into the wrestling business. The Frost sisters have been at your throat from jump street...however since Final Encounter the three of you have been able to settle your differences and become friends. Does THAT make you happy?
Bobbi only has to ponder that question for a matter of seconds before responding.
Bobbi: Y-yes...of course.
Showtime: Then that's all you need to worry about...
Showtime slowly stands up and brings his wife to her feet with him as he continues to talk to her.
Showtime: At the end of the day, everyone is going to have an opinion. Be it right or wrong...that's just what people do. You can't let other peoples opinion get to you. You just gotta be yourself, follow your heart...and be happy.
Bobbi: Yea...I guess so...
Showtime: No guessing, I know so. Look, you know Carmen and Giselle will come around. They're just being over protective. It's what they do. All of this is going to work out eventually and I bet all five of you can end up becoming really good friends.
Bobbi offers Michael a warm sincere smile as she leans up and kisses him gently on the lips.
Bobbi: Thanks baby...you always know the right words to make me feel better.
Showtime: I do what I can...hey!
Showtime says suddenly having an idea.
Showtime: Today is still your cheat day right?
Bobbi nods.
Showtime: How about I get on the phone and order us some pizza for dinner?
Bobbi's eyes light up as she quickly wipes away any remaining tears in them, its been weeks since the beautiful blonde has had some of her favorite food.
Bobbi: That sounds fantastic! Thank you!!
Bobbi clings to Michael tightly resting her head against his chest as he smiles down at her gently rubbing her back holding her in his protective arms. He knows his wife is ultra emotional at times, but it doesn't make him love her any less. He's always there for her when she needs him, and she's always there for him. As far as he's concerned, that's one constant in his life that will never change. Little does he know however that there will be many tests for this couple in the weeks and months to come as the scene fades out to black.
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That's all I've ever wanted from this world
Is to let me be me
Please would you one time
Let me be myself
So i can shine with my own light
Let me be myself
Please would you one time
Let me be myself
So i can shine with my own light
Let me be myself
For a while, if you don't mind
Let me be myself
So i can shine with my own light
Let me be myself
Would you one time... oooh
Let me be myself
Let me be me
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