Konrad's first ever ladder match in his wrestling career.

["The Iceman" Konrad Raab]

Konrad's lack of confidence and experience in ladder matches. Anaheim, California. Monday 8th April. (Off Camera)

When he came home at night after the Supreme Championship Wrestling UK tour on top of having psychotic counselling sessions with his mum yesterday, he was already mentally drained from the wrestling business. He can barely look at himself after this being the first day away from Twitter that he really needed. Of course, the only time he was planning to come on was on the Thursday for a match he has against Vlad Stokes in Rebellion Pro for his Ballroom title. 

He also has matches against Ben Jordan and Brittany Williams in Sin City Wrestling's Blast From The Past tournament, Damian Angel in Supreme Championship Wrestling's Unflawed PPV and the one he's thinking about, the one along with Damian Angel match being the most difficult match, GZWA TV title match in a ladder match. 

Konrad knew Equinox knows about Konrad's lack of experience in the ladder match and he knew he has little to no chance of winning, compared to the other two wrestlers in his mind were the type that have ladder match experience. Konrad had none at all, he was already in danger of losing the match because of that. He had turned down ladder matches in the past because he felt he was too big at the time for them.

But he knew at the same time, if there was a place he'd rather start claiming to be a Junior Heavyweight wrestler on top of the Dragonweight title where you only win one by competing in ladder matches, it was in GZWA where only a small amount of audiences compared to the companies he works in would see Konrad's lack of experience.

He goes upstairs to Fizz as it was one in the morning as he sees her being asleep and his kids were too. He really wanted to talk to Fizz, but she was sleeping was the problem and he was in a very different place right now as he says this.

Konrad Raab: “I got no chance in hell to win a ladder match.”

Fizz wakes up, wondering who was talking until she sees Konrad sitting on the bed, feeling very depressed due to his worries and lack of any experience of wrestling a ladder match. He couldn't even see Shawn Young that would help him because he's far too busy with his wrestling schedule that will keep him busy all week long. She says this.

Fizz Raab: “What do you mean a ladder match?”

Konrad Raab: “I'm facing Equinox and Brother Zachariah for the GZWA TV title. My chances of winning are diminished.”

Fizz Raab: “Babe, we all have to do things new sometimes whether it's at work or not, it's a chance for you to at least gain experience in one.”

Konrad Raab: “I know, but while I admire Equinox for actually forcing me to compete because of me wanting to get better as a Junior Heavyweight wrestler on top of the new Dragonweight title that's been introduced in Rebellion Pro. He's got me in a tight spot that now, I'm gonna lose. I'm gonna lose the match.”

Fizz sees Konrad's point, but she pushes him down as he was forced to sit on the bed before he takes his shoes and clothes off to get into his bed and covers himself as he looks at Fizz's eyes, kisses her as she understands the stress he's going through, especially the stress of being new and the fact he has no chance of winning.

Fizz Raab: “From what I've gathered, you're put in a ladder match by Equinox because to tell you the truth, he's wanted you to do the match because he knows it's where you haven't experienced it before and I understand why you turned them down in the past cos of your size which is no longer a factor. He's willing to help you gain that experience. I know you're scared and feeling like you don't have a chance of winning, but who knows the last time Equinox or Brother Zachariah competed in a ladder match.”

Konrad Raab: “At least they've done it. Me? I haven't. I'm useless at ladder matches. I don't have a clue how to win a ladder match. Tell me how do I win the ladder match?”

Fizz Raab: “Simple, you climb up the ladder and unhook the title to be the new TV champion. I know it's very much out of your comfort zone, but you for the love of god needed this. You needed this for quite some time actually, especially now Rebellion Pro has introduced that Dragonweight belt. You need to experience as much as you can and if you make mistakes, you'll learn from it.”

Konrad Raab: “I understand that, but I don't know where to fucking begin with them.”

Fizz Raab: “Just treat the beginning of the match like you usually do, just use the ladder at the end to climb. Where would you rather have your first ever ladder match, in GZWA or in Rebellion Pro?”

Most people forget that Fizz was once a wrestler in her days which is how and why Konrad even came to the wrestling business was because of Fizz and lack of any ideas of what to do with his previous job in Germany. He was shaking, fearing so much on messing up or not even attempting to climb because of his inexperience which was the main factor of why he'd lose against both opponents. He answers Fizz's question.”

Konrad Raab: “GZWA.”

Fizz Raab: “There you go and you know this time was going to come at some point in your life. Imagine that your first ever ladder's match in your career was in Rebellion Pro for the Dragonweight title and you didn't do anything because of not knowing what to do, people would mock you for it, wouldn't they?”

Konrad Raab: “Yeah.”

Fizz Raab: “Be lucky it's not there and you have Equinox helping you for once. Christ Konrad, I just think you're so stubborn. You help Equinox get better in the ring and start his career, it's time you receive the help. Also, didn't Brother Zachariah attack you and Equinox from behind after the match?”

Konrad Raab: “Yes he did, but that's not my main concern anymore as while I'd be glad to face him and beat him down, I can't fight myself to get out of the whole ladder mess. All I think about is how the hell I'm going to win and put out my full potential.”

It was clear that Konrad was having no confidence at all with the ladder match, being completely stubborn to know what he's really thinking about the ladder match more and it was a point that for the first time in quite some time, Fizz slaps Konrad around the face because he's confidence has struck a new low of not being able to cope of knowing how he'd win and she says this.

Fizz Raab: “It's a damn good thing you're mentally training yourself away from Twitter because you need this match. You need to find some confidence in winning the match. The only thing that's holding you back is your mentally. You're mentally is really low, more now than before. You need to find a way to believe in yourself because you'll better not try and run away. Cal said in an interview after he won in Argentina, if you don't have the mentally, you won't win or finish races, except its matches in this case.

Konrad Raab: “Me pretending to believe in myself? That's unrealistic.”

Fizz Raab: “It's not because that's how Cal won the race in Argentina. He mentally believed he can win and look what happened. That's what you need to get back on doing, regardless of the odds are stacked hugely against you is believing in yourself, even if you know you don't have a chance to win. That's why clearly you lost to Equinox.”

This leads to Konrad shutting up because there's no more excuse he can make. It's documented that Konrad was scared about the ladder match on how things are going to go. It was bothering him a lot that he hasn't slept very well since the match got changed to a ladder match, something he'd never competed in before and he admits the reason why he feels scared of the match.

Konrad Raab: “I feel like this because I don't have time to find someone to train me in a ladder match. It's hard knowing I have to learn everything in that match by myself. Wildcard title is a different story as I got help for that, but there's nobody out there in the timeframe I have will help me.”

Fizz Raab: “While I understand that, but please Konrad, you need to do this because Equinox is counting on you to bring your best against him. I said earlier he wants to help you and you need to do it right now. Many Junior Heavyweight wrestlers are skilled in ladder matches and you don't think you'll be placed in one, on top of thinking you won't in Rebellion Pro when they place you in the Dragonweight title match.”

Konrad Raab: “Shit, you're right. Many Junior Heavyweight wrestlers are skilled in this type of match and I'm literally ignoring that? Fizz, you made more sense than I have. I'm aware I could be placed in a Dragonweight title match that involves ladders too. I'm just insecure as fuck about it. I will listen to you and even Cal to believe I can win the match.”

Now Konrad was getting somewhere as it's been almost forty-five minutes to drill Konrad's head about the match being used as his benefit, although she knew Konrad's very insecure about wrestling a ladder match as she says this.

Fizz Raab: “Making mistakes and not winning the TV title is nothing to be ashamed of at all. We all have to try new things at some point in our lives. Yes, use this GZWA ladder match as training to get better as a Junior Heavyweight wrestler and know you'd be able to go for the Dragonweight title in Rebellion Pro in the near future. I know you can do it.”

Konrad Raab: “Yes and I have to do it as well because I'd be running for the rest of my life for ladder matches if I don't do this now, especially I could lose the Ballroom title and be given a Dragonweight title shot. I will find a way to beat Brother Zachariah and Equinox to be the new TV champion. Xion and Equinox have placed me in this match for a reason and I need to do it. I need to win to remove the odds that are very much against me.”

Fizz Raab: “Indeed you do need to do it to gain experience in a match you've never done before it's too late. Now, you need to get some sleep and don't stress over it. I love you.”

Konrad Raab: “I love you too.”

Fizz knew it was Konrad who needed some loving as they turned the lights out and closed the bedroom door. They tried to sleep, only to last for half an hour before you could hear noises coming from both Fizz and Konrad on making time for each other before they fall asleep two hours later together.

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My first ever ladder match in my entire wrestling career youtube.com shoot. (On camera)

“The title says it all on the discussion to be had today, I admit it because I've never ever been in a ladder match in my entire career, no matter how many times Equinox wants me to be in ladder matches for many years, but I always turned them down because at the time before I was a Junior Heavyweight wrestler, I was too big to do ladder matches, but at least I got that factor out of the way for that because I can do them.

I won't have any problems climbing up the ladder with the size I am now because I lost a heck a lot of weight to get where I am and I've stuck to the same diet ever since because I enjoy eating it. I've not even had time for anybody to train me with the ladder match because I've been so busy wrestling all the time.

But I do have a problem with one person in this match I haven't mentioned yet and that's Brother Zachariah. I just think you're a little bitch quite honestly, crying because you got an injury in our match. I never got injured in my career and there's a high risk of it happening again, but if I did, I wouldn't even cry about it. My brother Lord Raab gets injured all the time, but you know what he does?

He still continues wrestling because not even a broken arm or leg gets him down. I get it, you want to avenge me and Equinox from a loss two months ago, but maybe I'm missing something here, but how the hell did I or Equinox injure you in that tag match with Doombringer? I don't know, but we didn't mean to injure you because we don't hurt people in the ring and if we do, we did it by accident. It wasn't on purpose.

I'd never hurt any wrestler for no reason or when I'm not forced to be in violent matches. I don't know what the point was for you to attack me and Equinox like you did like a coward because you got injured. I'm most likely going to be injured tomorrow night when I face against a man who's more dangerous than you, but I wouldn't bitch or complain about it, I'd be in the ring beating the living hell out of you for what you've done.

However I can't thank Equinox enough for forcing me to be in this situation because you've been right all along, especially now with the title stipulated only to be used in ladder matches in another company elsewhere that I rather have my first ever ladder match in my entire career to take place here than in Rebellion Pro.

You know what I said about you and I'm sticking with that, but this time, you've given me no chance at all of me winning, knowing I had no experience in this type of environment and I'm sure Zachariah has been in ladder matches before too, but this is my first time so the pressure is really on you guys to win, not me as I'm officially an underdog in this match.

According to Fizz, she told me I have to climb a ladder to retrieve a title being tied up there. That's all I heard about how I'm going to win this match and I most likely stick with it because I'm showing you guys that I'm really weak right now and my insecurities have never been higher, but a Moto GP rider Cal Crutchlow said something that Fizz made me listen to over and over again, if you don't have positive mentally, you'll never win matches or even complete them. I'm finding this difficult actually more than ever because it's another reason why I've not been on because I'm mentally training myself not just the Damian Angel match I have tonight, but with this ladder match as well.

Despite all of this, I have to believe I can win this match and I will learn from Equinox how he'll help me because trust me, I do need this more than ever before and I'm not scared of climbing ladders, I'm scared of losing this match again and no, I don't feel I deserve a title shot after my performances on top of my actions towards people and I'm surprised I've not been fired yet.

But I was in a bad place and kind of still am, but not as bad as before and you lads may have more chances than I do on risking yourselves to fly off ladders, but I don't have that much experience in the Junior Heavyweight division yet because it's still new and exciting to me, but I enjoy learning, that's how wrestling became fun again on top of me still learning to this day about violent matches as well. 

I needed this and I will have to push and mentally win this match, otherwise, I can say goodbye to having a TV title. I know Equinox and Brother Zachariah will bring everything they have with odds being with them, while it's against me because of me having no experience and I needed to gain it and most importantly, win the TV title because I want a solo's title to my name in GZWA and I'm on my way of doing so.

Because I want to believe that I can win for the sake of trying to do anything possible for me to win as I have to improve and evolve myself to be a better Junior Heavyweight wrestler and something I'm very proud of. Equinox and Brother Zachariah, tomorrow night in Lakeland, Florida, Prepare to be Iceinated by the new TV champion, with my hand raised in the air with the belt as well, gaining valuable experience and it'll be the same if I lose the match too. Good luck boys cos your gonna need it.”